So Long....Good-bye!
Hello uninvited guest. It's been a while since you emerged. I actually thought you were gone. I had said goodbye to you a long time ago.
Since you have shown your raw face again, please don't make yourself at home. You can't stay.
Don't make yourself comfortable. You are not welcomed here anymore.
You see...once you came to live when I wasn't looking. You made quite a little nest in my heart. You took up residence. You anchored deep.
But you were not invited. You wedged your way in. And I don't like you.
Your words hurt. I have allowed you to say things that do damage.
Please.Stop.Go.
Please take your hater-aide somewhere else. Take away your spewing words that destroy.
Even though I can see my hand prints impressed in your frame, they will not call my name.
The fact that you will miss me is not enough to keep you near. You lie.
What has changed you ask? I got stuck in this truth.....
Psalm 139: 14 "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that fully well."
Listen to this....God created me and my inmost being. Verse 15 says that my frame, my being was not hidden from Him. God knew me when I was being formed in my mother's womb. He knew me as His before I was anything, before I was something, before I was formed, and beforeI was someone.
Before...when I was just a substance...God knew me.
So...knowing that...and understanding what this means makes all the difference.
You see....you big "ugly" stick... you like to slam my self-esteem with harm. Now, you will not have a presence here. Not in my heart or mind. Nope, not welcomed. No permits issued. I don't belong to you. I belong to God. I am His.
You have caused enough pain. It's time for new beginnings..for some heart repair to begin.
I am loved.
I am loved by the One who creates.
I am loved by the Only One who cared about me before I had breath.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am wonderful!
I am loved by the One who knows a perfect love.
Hey Big Stick, cruelty and God's wonderful don't mix. And honestly I want all of God's wonderful I can get.
There is no room for you anymore. End of story...you big-stick-in-the-corner-of-my-mind that I have been carrying around for years to pulverize.
Good-bye. And so long. I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Here's some great news....so are you.
Since you have shown your raw face again, please don't make yourself at home. You can't stay.
Don't make yourself comfortable. You are not welcomed here anymore.
You see...once you came to live when I wasn't looking. You made quite a little nest in my heart. You took up residence. You anchored deep.
But you were not invited. You wedged your way in. And I don't like you.
Your words hurt. I have allowed you to say things that do damage.
Please.Stop.Go.
Please take your hater-aide somewhere else. Take away your spewing words that destroy.
Even though I can see my hand prints impressed in your frame, they will not call my name.
The fact that you will miss me is not enough to keep you near. You lie.
What has changed you ask? I got stuck in this truth.....
Psalm 139: 14 "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that fully well."
Listen to this....God created me and my inmost being. Verse 15 says that my frame, my being was not hidden from Him. God knew me when I was being formed in my mother's womb. He knew me as His before I was anything, before I was something, before I was formed, and beforeI was someone.
Before...when I was just a substance...God knew me.
So...knowing that...and understanding what this means makes all the difference.
You see....you big "ugly" stick... you like to slam my self-esteem with harm. Now, you will not have a presence here. Not in my heart or mind. Nope, not welcomed. No permits issued. I don't belong to you. I belong to God. I am His.
You have caused enough pain. It's time for new beginnings..for some heart repair to begin.
I am loved.
I am loved by the One who creates.
I am loved by the Only One who cared about me before I had breath.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am wonderful!
I am loved by the One who knows a perfect love.
Hey Big Stick, cruelty and God's wonderful don't mix. And honestly I want all of God's wonderful I can get.
There is no room for you anymore. End of story...you big-stick-in-the-corner-of-my-mind that I have been carrying around for years to pulverize.
Good-bye. And so long. I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Here's some great news....so are you.
Desert Days
We all have specific seasons that we journey through. Mine seems to be one of dryness... like a desert. Have you ever felt that way?
From my prayer journal...
"I yearn for your answers God. You know my prayers, my hopes, dreams and desires. I long for Your promises to be complete. Sometimes the waiting period seems unbearable. God your will seems cloudy or unclear. The waiting seems excruciatingly endless."
Perhaps your desire is for your broken marriage to be restored, your rebellious teenager to return or a family member's health to be healed. Maybe you are waiting for the right person to be your soul mate. You wait. You pray. You wait some more.
The Bible is full of people who waited. Godly people like Abraham and Sarah waited. They had to wait till they were old to have their first child. Joseph was sold as a slave by his own brothers, only to end up in prison for years before his promise of authority became a reality in his life. Why did God make them wait? Why does God allow us to wait?
There can be long periods of waiting for us all in our different situations and circumstances. And in those waiting times our faith is put to the test. I know I get impatient and sometimes doubt. However, I am learning, that in the waiting, there is joy in this journey. Yes, it's possible to be happy in this waiting room we are in. While waiting I am learning more about who God is.
Ps. 119:123-124, "My eyes strain to see your deliverance, to see the truth of your promise fulfilled. I am your servant; deal with me in unfailing love, and teach me your principles."
One day in frustration I actually cried out loud to God..."I am out of prayers!" What I really meant was I am out of words. I have prayed circles around some of my concerns. I know that God has heard me, and as I dried my tears, my course of action was clear.
I must have blind faith in His time. My need to wait overrides my need to understand.My need to control takes a back seat to His omnipotence. My need to understand is overshadowed by His peace.My next step is illuminated as I surrender to full trust.My need to feel complete is waived as He weaves a beautiful tapestry.
As my eyes strain to see His promise, I have hope and joy as I wait to see His plans unfold. My raw dependence on His strength carries me through.
Dear God... perfect your faith in me no matter...how long it takes.
Have you had to wait on God for a specific answer to prayer? What did you learn in your waiting?
From my prayer journal...
"I yearn for your answers God. You know my prayers, my hopes, dreams and desires. I long for Your promises to be complete. Sometimes the waiting period seems unbearable. God your will seems cloudy or unclear. The waiting seems excruciatingly endless."
Perhaps your desire is for your broken marriage to be restored, your rebellious teenager to return or a family member's health to be healed. Maybe you are waiting for the right person to be your soul mate. You wait. You pray. You wait some more.
The Bible is full of people who waited. Godly people like Abraham and Sarah waited. They had to wait till they were old to have their first child. Joseph was sold as a slave by his own brothers, only to end up in prison for years before his promise of authority became a reality in his life. Why did God make them wait? Why does God allow us to wait?
There can be long periods of waiting for us all in our different situations and circumstances. And in those waiting times our faith is put to the test. I know I get impatient and sometimes doubt. However, I am learning, that in the waiting, there is joy in this journey. Yes, it's possible to be happy in this waiting room we are in. While waiting I am learning more about who God is.
Ps. 119:123-124, "My eyes strain to see your deliverance, to see the truth of your promise fulfilled. I am your servant; deal with me in unfailing love, and teach me your principles."
One day in frustration I actually cried out loud to God..."I am out of prayers!" What I really meant was I am out of words. I have prayed circles around some of my concerns. I know that God has heard me, and as I dried my tears, my course of action was clear.
I must have blind faith in His time. My need to wait overrides my need to understand.My need to control takes a back seat to His omnipotence. My need to understand is overshadowed by His peace.My next step is illuminated as I surrender to full trust.My need to feel complete is waived as He weaves a beautiful tapestry.
As my eyes strain to see His promise, I have hope and joy as I wait to see His plans unfold. My raw dependence on His strength carries me through.
Dear God... perfect your faith in me no matter...how long it takes.
Have you had to wait on God for a specific answer to prayer? What did you learn in your waiting?
